I ran in high school (1500 meters,
and also for soccer and basketball, and the very occasional, personal long runabout
six miles in those days). I ran in the Army Airborne (mass, instep, group runs, 3 miles a
day, six days a week, for almost three years, the last 14 months often at daybreak on
German cobblestone streets in jump bootsa curiously awesome, goose bump inducing
experience to me!). Then I put away my running until 17 years later at age 37 and
weighing, what was for me, a bloated 183 pounds, when I decided to try it againnow
belatedly as the "battle of the bulge." However, within six months I knew again
that, weight be damned, I was still a runner!
Now on the eve of becoming 60. With
575 races and 44,000 "adult" miles behind me I am compelled to think about my
running from an older, more reflective perch, and especially upon my aging and running. I
have some personal observations to make.
I am slowing down, not
surprisingly, and at an accelerating rate. The reasons are many, while the fallout is
dispiriting and cumulative. I am inextricably caught in a downward spiral, and yet I
strive to keep my head above the water and to stay focused upon the horizon. As we older
runners keep telling one-another, "slower is better than the alternative."
I have all but stopped running the
shorter runs. My mile, 3K, 5K, 5mile, and 10K are all getting substantially slower. Having
done 20-40 or more of each of these distances there is nothing left to discover, and I am
on the far side of my peak times for all of them and falling rapidly. Strength and speed
are the first to go, while endurance mercifully lingers.
I also find as a side effect that
while I can still run flats and especially downhill only modestly slower than before, I am
all but unable to run uphill. Consequently, I no longer run them but march them
vigorously, except in the shorter distances or in relays.
Given the relative persistence of
endurance with age, the much greater role of mental focus and tenacity in longer runs, and
the relatively fewer runs I have done at really longer distances, I have
essentially become a long distance specialist. In this regard, I also have at my service a
key axiom garnered from personal observations made at many races over the years, "the
longer the race, the older the participants". Also, as we all know, speed kills, and
that is certainly true when it comes to generating injuries! It is so much more likely for
a senior runner to pull or strain an aging muscle with an all-out fast effort than it is
for a youngster to do so. Here then, is another contributing factor to running long.
Not only do times slow as one ages,
but perhaps even more challenging, recovery slows. This includes recovery from both the
exhaustion experienced from hard training or racing and recovery from injuries suffered
along the way. Where I used to run every day, I now hope to run only every other day. On
the alternate day I typically walk or racewalk, bike, row, and/or do light weights and
stretching. While I can still make my self run more frequently, my legs become heavy, my
aches persistent, my body lethargic, and my spirit flagging.
I also find that, as I age, my
performances have become less satisfying for me and less relevant for anyone else. In
spite of my best efforts, I am no longer near the front of the race. My times are becoming
more and more distant from the winner's time. And who besides another 59-60 year-old
really cares what a runner oi that age is doing. That is the simple fact of the matter.
This further detracts from my effort's value and makes it even more difficult to keep
pushing my already fading body and spirit.
I now also find myself counting
privately and anxiously just how many years I may have left to run at this point, ...maybe
ten? Certainly far less than I have already been running! How many 70-year-old runners do
you know? Very, very few indeed! And for the majority of those, there is little
performance incentive except to finish.
And I am now concerned that certain
seminal running milestones have already silently passed me by - a 6:00 mile, 30:00 5 mile,
40:00 10K, 3:00:00 marathon, 8:00:00 50 mile, and perhaps the ability to ever again finish
the Western States Endurance Run or post 100 miles or more in a 24-hour run. Can I still
run around Mt. Rainier, and, if so, will the next instance truly be the last one? These
doubts have a profound impact upon your dreaming, thinking, and planning as a runner. Is
it becoming too late to do "x?" If you are a naturally competitive runner and
person, these realities require constant, painful adjustment and rethinking of one's goals
and priorities. If you love running, as I do, this is both exasperating and disappointing.
It is corrupting! I am also loath to pass up an event I still feel I myself capable of
doing for fear that next year I may no longer be able to I do it.
There is also a popular maxim among
runners that it is not so much the age of the runner, per se, as the miles on the runner
which accelerate - the slowing process. Regardless, by either measure I am becoming a
fading, slowing runner. I have both the accumulated years and milesand yes, even the
accumulated miles raced!
Inevitably, I must simply return to
an earlier phrase, "Whatever you are still able to do, it is far better than the
alternative." Did you give it your best effort? Did you do the mostyou could with
what you've still got? If so, that's truly all you can do. You deserve a pat on the
backat the very least your own pat! You should praise yourself. In no case should
you allow yourself to berate your performance. And you should close and try to distance
yourself from your one-time personal record book. Those performances belong to yesterday,
and yesterday is gone. So put your best foot forward, and just keep on placing one foot
before the other - as all runners must do. It still feels the same. Only the time has
changed. And time always was the ultimate runner's taskmaster........